Satisfaction

I had quite a productive chat with my boss this morning.

Last night, I realised that there were two paths before me.

I could either aim to go freelance next year, and kiss goodbye to any maternity benefits if we did decide at a later date to have kids, or I could stick where I am, and then decide about the freelance thing at a later date.

So I chatted to my boss about me staying in my role (he seemed relieved), but broadening the skills base so I learn more stuff, and developing the role so I don't get bored, and have a bit more status (and hopefully earning capacity eventually).

Anyway, it makes far more sense for me to try and gain some satisfaction in my current role and put the freelance thing and B&B etc. on hold, and if we do decide to have a family, to stay in a job where I get good maternity, and they are very supportive about flexible hours or part time working.

That said, I raised the issue with Nick last night, and as usual, his reply is "Well, we don't have to make a decision now"... well, no, we don't, not immediately, but it comes back to my impatience at wanting to know where we're headed, because knowing him, if he doesn't even start thinking about the idea of it, he's never going to be ready. He's one of those people who needs to mentally prepare himself for a while before we jump in, and 9 months wouldn't cut it!

He still says that he thinks he does want kids, but just not yet; whereas I am of the view that we really need to do some planning around this, in terms of jobs, housing, location etc. and these things take time to get into place.