Getting up the nerve...
Not doing the race was definitely the right decision. On Friday night I struggled to run a full 2 miles, and have come to conclusion that maybe I do need to see a doctor.
The weird thing is that I feel perfectly healthy, but I seem to be getting more and more unfit with every gym visit.
Actually, I'm not sure it's a fitness thing, because my breathing is fine, but I just feel weary all over, rather than my legs aching or anything specific. I have been getting stitch more recently though.
The thing is that I am not good about going to Doctors. They either tell me I'm overweight (yeah, thanks, I know that), or I end up having to tell them what's wrong with me.
When I had my anaphylaxis, I looked up on the internet about what could have caused it, and then went to the docs in the hopes that they would refer me to somewhere for allergy testing - instead, she told me to look up on Google for allergy testing places - no mention of a referral, or of the National Allergy Centre (I think that's what it's called).
When I went to the docs last year about lack of weight loss, and tiredness - the answer was that I was just doing too much, in terms of my running and working etc. and not really having weekends to relax.
When pushed he did give me a form to fill in and take up to the hospital to have some blood taken to be tested. I didn't do it, because he said there wasn't really anything wrong with me.
This leads me to my second issue with doctors - I am not good with needles. I used to be absolutely fine, no problems. Until a flu jab in my final year at school, when I fainted and crashed to the floor.
Then at uni, having my jabs to go to Turkey, again, I passed out. And again when I had some jabs for going to Corfu.
So, I'm not very trusting of doctors who don't seem to know much more than I do, and I hate needles because I always pass out.
However, I think I need to get myself checked out because a lot of things just don't add up, and I can't find anything online to help. I thought it might be an iron deficiency, but I don't think it is that.
Helpfully when I mentioned it to my dad, he just remarked that he thought I was pregnant.... um no. No chance of that.
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I've been doing more weights and stuff to try and make up for the lack of stamina in the running. Again, I've been feeling quite weary after much less than I used to do.
I guess I don't feel that I can be bored - because I've been running far less this year than I was last year, I mean doing less sessions.
I shall start doing other things as well though, because I need to burn the calories somehow!